Sunday, 22 January 2017

THE DOG WHO SPOKE HIS HEART OUT

In the night as I was sprawling back home, I met a dog. I asked him, hey dude, chilling out today. The dog replied, what it has to do with you, go home. I asked, this days, in the night hours, you don’t roam around in our neighborhood. Don’t you bark this days, every time you see a man with questionable intentions, someone who is suspicious in his actions, don’t you know the cases of stealth and robbery have increased in our neighborhood. People will question your credibility now buddy, the image of dogs is at stake. Dog whispered within, look at this piece of ass, doesn’t do his work properly and advising others to be aware of their responsibilities. The dog said, you seem to be so full of knowledge and your tongue is not a bit tired shooting all those hypocritic words of wisdom. Seven days ago, I had come to your house, I saw your wife smiling outside the house. I felt happy looking happy at her and thought to myself, today I will surely get some bread to eat. Thirty minutes passed by, I wagged my tail non stop but neither your wife nor did you take notice of me. I roamed the whole colony but I could find no place, where I could get something to eat. Thirsty, hungry and tired, I came back. Its been two days I haven’t eaten anything, don’t irritate me more and leave home. I thought for a while and realized his grief is real and what he said is right, so out of curiosity I asked, don’t feel angry dude, but that day, didn’t you get anything to eat. The dog said, no, that day, till evening no one gave me bread to eat but bin the night came two people, they gave me bread and biscuits to eat. Curiosity got the better of me again and I asked again, was it Mr. Gupta and Choubey,  it must be surely them, they take good care of animals like you. No, said the dog, those two people were I guess those, people whom you labeled as men with suspicious intentions, robbers and criminals, they arranged bread for me. Perhaps that’s why I stay away from your colony this days, bye need to go now, you also leave for your home now, saying this the dog went away. I stood their puzzled and a bit guilty, as I had learned a lesson.

Friday, 20 January 2017

THE VISION - A DEPRESSED MAN AND JESUS

As I was chanting the rosary last night, I had a vision, a strange vision, I saw a man lying in darkness, and heaps of depression, he was there in a room and there was darkness, the atmosphere was sadistic it seemed like he was frustrated, he seemed dull and his shadow looked weak, as I saw him from a different world, I could get the vibes, he no longer wished to live, he wished to kill himself. I really didn’t quite understand what was going in my mind, why was I seeing all this, I stood where I was and with confusions, in my mind I saw him getting broken mentally, the mental turmoil was taking a toll on him. I could go through the thoughts in his mind, it read, you don’t deserve to live, you are a waste, you have disappointed everyone, you have got no hope left, you are such a scum, kill yourself, at least your dear ones would be happy after that, they will be free of at least a problem from their lives. I was like no dude, just hold on and so seriously wanted to help him. Here I was witnessing someone being destroyed in his own fears, but couldn’t do anything, I felt powerless in my helplessness and that’s when a lightning struck, I was blinded for a while, but as I opened my eyes again. I saw a marvelous temple, the wind was blowing strongly and atop the temple I saw Jesus, yes it was him. I wished to go near him, embrace him, talk to him but alas, I stood there and kept staring at my Lord. The feeling was weird; My Lord looked troubled as if he was going through a dilemma but o yes I could read his thoughts, it said, “throw yourself, jump off the clip, aren’t you the Son of God, just throw yourself down, why do you fear, the angels from heaven will be given orders, they will hold you in their hands and you won’t be hurt.” I could feel the presence of the devil, the darkness in the clouds, the dilemma my Lord was going through, I could sense him, yes he was there somewhere around, yes trying to tempt my Lord. I had read the scriptures and I knew what my Lord would do, he said to the Devil, I won’t put my Father, My Lord, My God to test and that was the end, I was back on my bed with rosary in my hand and I felt weird, really weird.
Perhaps I could get the connection, perhaps I couldn’t, what I could summarize was; the temptation to give up looms on us at times, life seems like a burden and we want to break free, end for ever but perhaps we should just hold on, rather than testing the Love of God, perhaps questioning the love of our dear ones, we should just hold on, the testing phase would be over for good. You never know.

Sunday, 15 January 2017

As the cold wind blew, We embraced each other


I was sitting on a terrace of mood swings and terrible loneliness, depression was their in the clouds and everything around looked dull. Those shots of alcohol last night and a night devoid of sleep had drained my energy. My friends had left, my parents were far away and the feeling of emptiness was terrible, my mood was swirling into depressive imaginations, my eyes would have burst into tears but my mind was dumb, I sat there motionless thinking about the troubles that lied in the womb of future, that moment I was living my fears. What if I failed, I had failed so many times, I had fallen so many times, there were scars all over my heart, body and soul. The terrace was cold and I shivered every time, a cold wind blew through those wounds. I felt weak, I felt guilty, I felt troubled, my mind was burdened with mistakes and sins. I raised my eyes and I saw the moon and piercing through the clouds, moonlight came and sat beside me. I felt a bit good and wished to hold her hands, but resisted my thoughts. I was happy she was there beside me and I felt good, me and she sitting beside each other, it was a beautiful moment. But the skies had troubled her and there was gloom on her face, like me even she looked lost and lonely, may be the wind that flew through my wounds, flew through her wounds as well. She looked sad, she looked gloomy, I held her hands in mine without a second thought. She sat there beside me, looking at infinity and said, you know I feel so lonely today, I don’t know if I am upset or not, but yes I am feeling quite weird, may be I think a bit too much. I said, even I feel the same. Come, embrace me, give me a hug she said. I so very much wanted this, I so desperately needed it, I embraced her with all my love in the heart and held her tightly in my arms. I felt good, the cold wind was there, but we were now in the arms of each other, there was warmth, there was love. We hugged each other, in midst of all the rejections we faced, the betrayals we had, the fears we lived and are still living. I simply wished that I don’t let her go and wished to move further, perhaps may be some other time. I Whispered in her ears, I so very much needed this, she whispered back, me too.

Sunday, 1 January 2017

IN THE BEGINNING WAS WORD

In the beginning was Word and the word was with God and the word was God. – St John 1:1

This verse from the gospel of St John is enough to prove the power of word. Words are powerful because the words you write, the words you say express your thoughts within. They affect the people around you, they inspire your very own surroundings. Words have the power to inspire; they have the power to motivate the weakest souls, to break the strongest hearts, to heal the broken wounds. Words are double edge swords, they can make you fall in love, They can make you fall out of love. They are soothing, so are they hurting. I do wish to spread love, a lot of love but I am a mortal man, I may fall down at times, I have my mood swings, I do go into depressions, I do feel weak and lonely at times, so rather than spreading love I would say, Issac would write his heart out, writing out those strong emotions that bombard his heart. 

As this Day is the first day of the year 2017, I wish to start the year on a positive note, so here I am writing down for you all one of my favorite bible verses :-

“Jesus answered them, have faith I God. I assure you that whoever tells this hill to get up and throw itself in the sea and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him. For this reason I tell you, when you pray and ask for something, believe that you have received it and you will be given whatever you ask for. And when you stand and pray forgive anything you may have against anyone, so that your Father in heaven will forgive the wrongs you have done”.- St Mark 11:22-25

When Jesus says, you can move mountains, yes then we surely can. We need to have faith in God and belief in ourselves. When we believe we are awesome and say to ourselves that o yeah, I am awesome. Trust me buddy, you are an awesome soul. Have the guts to love yourself, have the guts to look onto yourself and say those three beautiful words. “I LOVE  YOU”. And to love ourselves, we need to be healed of the wounds of the past, we need to let go those hateful memories, those hateful feelings, we need to forgive the ones who have hurt us and empty our hearts so that God pours his love and fills us with his blessings


Lets make a fresh start in 2017, lets believe in miracles again, lets chase our dreams again and become  the person we wish to be, Lets not drag life, but live with hope and high spirit..

Sunday, 18 December 2016

Spread the word… it is CHRISTmas

CHRISTmas is in air.
Wishes… carols and articles relating to CHRISTmas are continuously dropping in.
But in this joyful and merry making time I end up arguing with people for the usage of Xmas instead of “CHRISTmas”.
I hear so many clarifications defending their point. No that’s not wrong… Early Christians used… X is a Greek word which means Christ… it’s a shortcut… easy to type… and so much of blah..blah
I have something to ask all who argue on this issue…
Did your CHRIST use shortcuts to come down to Earth ?
Know that… like you… He could have used a shortcut.
Did your CHRIST use shortcuts when His parents knocked every single door for little space for His birth ?
Know that… like you… He could have used a shortcut.
Did your CHRIST use shortcuts while He walked to the Calvary ?
Know that… like you… He could have used a shortcut.
Did your CHRIST use shortcuts as He was been crucified in order to save you and me from our sins ?
Know that… like you… He could have used a shortcut.
What constructive thing did you do in your life… by saving a fraction of your precious minute ?
Do ponder.
Reason for this season is solely CHRIST. Spread the word… it is CHRISTmas
I implore to one and all… please don’t run after shortcuts. Remember shortcuts lead to deep cuts.
Keep CHRIST in your heart…
Give CHRIST to others in the form of love, peace and wishes.
– She

Thursday, 15 December 2016

THE 12 LESSONS I LEARNT IN 2016




This year has been a learning year for me, a lot of lessons learnt, here are the top 12 for you :-

1) Time goes by like a puff of smoke - 

This year went like a flash, it seems like just yesterday, The new year celebrations were just over and now its almost 15 december, 10 days away from christmas and 16 days away from new year.



2) Life is hard and cruel once you step out of college - 

You have to earn your bread and butter, go through a lot of rejections, politics, selfishness, egos and still survive. No one will give you a single penny for free, that's when you realize your true self, the arrogant you is defeated and a humble persona is born.



3) School was much better, College is useless - 

School prepared you to take the big leap, to fly high, but time spent in college made me mediocre and strictly average. Even today what i studied in school comes handy but nevertheless the bachelors i did in microbiology, the masters i did in applied chemistry is no use to me, i believe the bachelors and masters should be scrapped in our country because if this courses cannot guarantee a job, why waste time on them, those five years in college pushed me back academically though i did some great things, learned what life is, made a lot of friends, read a lot, i mean a lot of novels, played sports, fell in love, broke up with my girlfriend, sang for the Lord and participated in a lot of cultural events, the academic void that was formed was filled up with this beautiful memories, so yeah in 2016 when i look back, i don't regret my college years.




4) Learned to live alone - 

In the beginning of the year, i got a job in Indore, so i had to shift and live away from my parents, though that job sucked and made me go through some really harsh times, i still persisted. God's grace was on me, a family friend, a big brother helped me big time, my spiritual guide gave me strength. Though i stumbled in the initial months but gradually with time learned to manage my expenses, though taking care of yourself is a bit tough but yes i have managed to do so for all this months.



5) Learned to cook - 

The pros of living alone was that it forced me to learn the basic skill of survival and that's cooking, My dad always used to say," A simple meal made by your hands is always healthier than a banquet served outside". I was quite bored eating out and eating out always was a tad too expensive. Youtube, google and My Mother came to my rescue, with their help, i learned to make Simple curries, chapatis, broken wheat, oats and guess what the father of all dishes, " Chicken". Sometimes what i make tastes good, sometimes horrible but i eat it anyways, how can i let my hard work go waste.



6) Learned to organize booze parties for my friends- Now that i learned to make chicken, every time there is a booze party at my house, we don't need to buy the oily, over spicy, over priced chicken from outside. I prepare chicken, roast some peanuts, get a packet of chips, prepare a sev salad and hurray, at a shoestring budget, partying hard.



7) Switched on to raw diet - 

After working for eight hours in the office, coming back home, chatting with friends, blogging, hanging out, Reading books, watching movies, washing clothes, working out and sleep takes a lot of my time. Twenty four hours is just not enough at times, so i have to comprise with my eating habits. Because i couldn't get time to cook, i switched myself to raw diet and would sustain myself on days on raw vegetables, milk, grams, nuts and honey. Though my digestive system went berserk for a couple of days but slowly it adapted to the changes it was put into and i felt more light and better. Though i am back to cooking, because i do crave for taste.



8) Combat Conditioning - 

I used to be a yoga and jogging person in my college days, though i used to do yoga a lot, i was quite obese because i used to eat like a boar. Doing yoga didn't help much, so was jogging, i was still living with a lot of fat in my lower waist and abdomen and had this physique of an animal perhaps a buffalo. I never liked gym and i hated lifted weights, so going to the gym was out of question but yeah internet is a treasure house of knowledge and it was while exploring this treasure house, i stumbled upon Combat conditioning by Matt furrey, an exercise regime that consists mainly of three body weight exercises i.e Push-ups, squats and bridge. It basically stresses more importance on lifting your own body weight that lifting weights. Apart from playing table tennis and cricket occasionally, i ingrained this exercises in my routine. Though i haven't got great muscles but yes i believe Issac of 2016 is much fitter than Issac of 2015, though i still look like an animal, but the buffalo has transformed into a bull.



9) Switch your job, if you are not happy - 

If your age is between 24-30, you are unmarried and are reading this, switch your job if you are not happy, try out different jobs, grab new opportunities, take risks. For this years are your prime, make the most of it, never let yourself suffer of monotony,try to free yourself from the curse of doing something you don't like. I am not sure if you will succeed, but i am quite sure, you won't regret, for you gave your best.



10) I love my parents and they love me too - 

When i was with them, there were frictions, conflicts and arguments. Now that i am away from them, i miss them and have started loving them a lot more than i ever used to do, yes they do have flaws but even i have them, i was never a great son but yes my parents with their limited resources gave me the best comforts. To earn a penny for yourself is tough, to earn and raise a family, just imagine, how tough it would be. For me feeding myself is an ordeal but my parents did that for almost 24 years.



11) Friends are not forever - 

Yes, a painful truth i embraced this year. I lost a lot of friends, this year, My childhood friends, my brothers, some went out for studies and some got jobs in different cities, it broke me mentally, i was heartbroken and did miss those good old times, but life is hard and you have to live it that way, i accepted the fact and moved on.



12) Jesus is Love - 

Yes Jesus is love, he is my guide and he has been guiding me since childhood,through my teens into my youth. His grace has kept me alive for all this years, though born in a christian family, i found Christ in my college days and to this day he amazes me every single time, singing for him, reading about him, praying to him, loving him fills me with joy and tears. Let me tell you i am no saint, i do sin, i do have a lot of flaws and i do fall down, but he gives me the courage to stand up every time, he embraces me every single time i am broken, he has took me out from the gravest and deepest depressions, in the deepest troubles, he gave me strength, he answered me when i most needed it. He has got answers to all my questions, i just need to seek him, kneeling on my knees, praying with closed eyes with a repent full heart. He guided me throughout the year and i have been learning this lesson, every year.



2015 was a year full of battles, i was fighting my own battles, with my own self and with people around me, frustration was at it peak, it was an year of rejection and failure, people kept betraying me and my life was hurting me, it hurt me so much that i bled, i was depressed, i felt bad, i felt confused, my life was in utter chaos, i found myself back again in 2016, this year was an year of struggle, survival and hope. Life is slowly getting back on track, i do feel better. Though the betrayals continue, they don't hurt me much. 

The battles are still on, but peace has been restored for a while.....Praise be to God almighty.

This post has been written for the indispire topic," 12 LESSONS I LEARNT IN THE YEAR 2016" posted by Sumelika das.













Saturday, 10 December 2016

THE DELHI FOG AND INVISIBLE ROMANCE

Last night she what sapped me a Pic, a picture of a deserted road covered with heavy fog, along with it she texted, so much fog here in Delhi, my goodness, early morning when i leave for work, not even a single thing is visible, its fog all around. Even the cab driver drives at 20kms on some roads.

I texted her, "huhhh, only if i were in Delhi, i would have made full use of the situation."

She texted, "full advantage of the situation, i mean how"

i answered,"being invisible in the fog, i would have touched you here and there, lol, ha ha ha ha"

She replied back, "ha ha ha ha, There was a reason, Why God destined you to take birth in Bhopal"