FROM THE DIARY OF A PROSTITUTE
I don’t care whether it was once exciting for me or not but I
at times hate what I do. It’s destroying my soul, making me lose touch with
myself, teaching me that pain is a reward, that money buys everything and
justifies everything.
No one around me is happy, the clients know they are paying
for something that should be free, and that’s depressing. The women know that
they have to sell something which they would like to give out of pleasure and
affection, and that is destructive. I have struggled hard and log before
writing this, before accepting how unhappy and dissatisfied I am – I am needed
and I still need to hold on for a few more weeks.
But I cannot simply do nothing, pretend that everything is
normal, that it is just a stage, a phase of my life. I want to forget it, I need
to love- that’s all, I need to love.
Life is too short, or too long, for me to allow myself the
luxury of living It so badly….
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